so i don't belong

or maybe i do
and i just dont feel like it
i feel empty and angry

and i am pretty sure i am the only one
who didnt have a GREAT time yesterday

i was mad the whole time
:(

but at least crys had a great birthday
and hopefully nadia will too
because she needs and that makes me happy
that i make sure that my friends know they are loved





i am here listening to music and just letting the words flow
my brain is all scattered and i just have no hope



i'd say i am a caring person
a pain in the ass
but really caring

and lately its been really getting to me
i feel like i try so hard to always think of others
and letting them know
how much i appreciate them
or how much i am thankful for them
or making sure they are ok

and i dont feel like i have anyone
i mean in my head i know i do
i know that these people in my life love me
and like having me around



but sometimes i just dont feel it
sometimes i just feel out of it
like i dont belong and
everying is falling apart.


i am falling apart.








idk these feelings are just
so strange
and i dont like them



i dont like all this anger
and hurt that i have inside me


my heart hurts so much
its such a sticky situation




i just wanna be freeeeeeee















i suppose one day it'll all make sense
i'll all fall into sense
and i wont feel so horrible

ONE DAY