&& the first thing i did was think about how early it was then i sutmble upon my friends blog and remembered how great god is and said thank you
i like to sit and complain but i dont always say how greatful i am for what i do have. the lord has blessed me entirely to much. he has tested me more than i'd like but i am here
&& despite the trials and tribulations he pulled me through it all && this friends blog reminded me of that.
it reminded me that God provides that he works miracles even when we dont see it. he teaches forgiveness because he made the ultimate sacrifice. he died so that we may live.
so i think about this when i am upset or uneasy with those i care about. like ben. my cousin. while he didnt do anything nearly as offensive as he has done i feel like he took advantage of me and while i dont wish to yell at him i just wanna put it behind us, i am not sure he is ready to speak with me. which is fine i guess. but i know we are family and given last nights Crystal events i am reminded of how much my family is, because like ben though not blood Crystal is family.
you know that saying "you leave your family to go to college," then one day it becomes some thing like, "youe leave your family to go home." thats a perfect example of the relationships that i have developed in the last year or so. family was only defined by blood for awhile, not it is defined by the people who stand by me, the people that God put to stand by me, the people that are there for me everyday and help me get through the trial and the tribulations and make me stronger.
so i remember to breather. i remember to tell everyone i care about i love them. i remember that time is precious. i remember that i am lucky. i remember that i am a fighter. and i remember that GOD ALWAYS PROVIDES
peace love and shooting star
elaine
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