the real world

so while i havent posted anything in a very long time(over a month)
lots has been happening int he wonderful world of elaine!
besides starting school and actually getting back on track i have been growing in my relationships as well!
life is good
i started school on the 15th and its just been quite the experience and i am loving it more than i have ever before but i have decided to post a blog because
1. i am procrastinating my studying
2. its been a long 2 days
3. la 48 has already passed!

yes yes last weekend was the wonderful longhorn awakening 48 in which i was staffing for the very first time and i absolutely loved it! but i have to admit at first i didnt feel like i got what i normally get when i staff retreats this feeling of god's presence is usually overwhelming but i didnt feel it this time and i could exactly figure out why.

then monday came around && my roomates crazy ex grabbed her and for the first time i didnt feel safe inside my apartment and i am not even sure how this even happens but the last two days have been intense. the cops were here today talking to us about safety and i really hope we got through to her about how crazy her ex is being and how scary this whole situation is

i had a very intense conversation with a good old friend of mine yesterday as we packed away his life in the atx for him to head back home and it was more of a spiritual talk that i truly appreciated. i saw things in a new light and new that god was present right then and there

just like earlier in the day when i was talking to victor about his spiritual journey
i felt like god was talking to him through me which was just absolutely amazing

tho things are complicated i see things differently. i stopped asking god why me and started to say thank you! he is trusting me so much with the curve balls he throws at me. he is preparing me for the future in the best way one can be prepared; through experience and all my searching is paying off and i am becoming more and more of a follower of christ and my life is slowly be shaped to be more like him.

even if my family is still not all put together i have god on my side. he even says it in Psalms i cant remember which one it was exactly but i know it was something like "even if your mother and father abandon you i will be with you" could i really ask for a better example of christ's love??




so life is what it is. its hard. its tough. somtimes it doesnt makes sens. sometimes we study and still do bad, but its all part of his plan for us, he is guiding us each and everyday and the more weak ive felt the harder i have leaned on God and the harder i lean the more i learn! and thats just what i need. i have finally accepted who i am and i know where i stan.


i have been blessed so much and i will continue to be a follower of christ and work to accomplish all the goals i have set out for myself. i am putting it all in his hands and i do plan on succeeding in the end. defeat will not be an option.

my sister looks up to me she is my world i never knew i could love as much as i love her because i have opened up to her and i have trusted her with secrets i do not tell anyone else and because of her i know that christ's love exist


i just had to share my feelings because i have the most amazing people in my life who come to my rescue and they are blessings and proof of God's love!


so i know that i will be ok&&all will work out just as he intends it to







peace love and shooting stars,
-elaine<3