june 3rd

i am not sure this day will ever be normal again. ironically i havent written in months! and today is the day i choose to write again. i could easily just talk about the memories of this day or the last real memories i actually had almost 3 years ago now this day reminds me of visiting hte cemetery and being sad but today i refuse to feel that way because i know that i am ok because i know the lord has a plan
so before all the mushy stuff i shall fill you in with the last few months

well easter was about the last time i wrote. it was a rough one with everything that went down with my parents. i am not even sure where to begin but i decided that after two days of being sad i wasnt gonna let them control my emotions so i dont anymore and i am working my tush off to make things better and to make myself better

i wanna do great things and i didnt have any direction but i do now and thats totally what i am going with..

so between formal school finals nadia turning 21 and care's graduation and such life hass been moving kinda fast. laying out at the pool and drinking til dawn good music and even better friends having bad moments and good ones making poor decisions and deciding to change. life is a bumpy roller coaster and everything is getting better and better

i want to change for the better and be a better person and example. thats what i intend to do. life is so random i dont even understand it

i think after sunday i may have to write again. care's graduation is sure to make things interesting i love her more than i have loved anything in the whole world



so today i will not be sad i will be happy i will live as if i have no other choice. i make today better than yesterday and i make tomorrow just as wonderful if not more


the lord is my light and my salvation.

peace love && shooting stars
laineyya