the fall

its september already
my oh my how time just goes on so fast you arent even sure how it happened
summer is long done
and fall classes are underway
september is half way over with
and i may not be at all the person i was

id like to think that God has a plan
a great intricate detailed plan of how my life is supposed to go
i'd like to think that every obstacle that has been placed in my life has been for a reason

and ultimately the i'd like's have become i believe's
and even tho i have no idea the purpose for all this or why he has trusted me
in the grand scheme of things i know its for a reason


a lot has changed i have changed
i maybe disappear a little or run away but i am trying hard not
read ti much into things
rather just work hard and make things happen
thats my ultimate goal in life
and i am excited to see where that path will take me.


there is this picture thats sitting at my new desk (yes i moved) and its about 3 1/2 years old
in this picture i see the friends i have had for years
we are filled with hope and inspired with love full of faith in the promises of the future.

i use to sit and wonder what happened to this girl from this picture
and how she became so scrambled in life and all the temptations
that have been put in her path

but she wasnt perfect she was learning through living and for this i applaud her
tho she does not walk the strait and narrow anymore
she pushes limits and sometimes over does it

she is progressing and making things work.
she has created her own path and is paving the way.




so today i refuse to bum
ive been doing that for days
its time to change things up
and move forward
despite the guilt and the mistakes

so reach high
and fly higher



peace love and shooting stars
-laineyya