summer days

it feels like summer is just beginning. like classes just finished and we are just starting to enjoy the long days with nothing to do. however its been about a month already since i finished classes and well i can't believe that it already mid june. work is starting to take over life and well life is still moving full speed. suddenly there aren't as many days spent at the pool tanning. i am not seeing everyone i was seeing daily during the semester. so there are mini vacations and long nights spent having long conversations. being saved by the most amazing people. making some interesting choices and having a few too many drinks

life is life. :) i love where i am at, but i hate that i have to get it all figured out before the fall. blah blah blah. its just life and making decisions that could impact my life for the next few years is quite a big deal and i am totally not liking it.


the next month or so should be interesting i have to pick up a class maybe two eek!
oh summer school you will be the death of me. i should probably call the financial aid office and figure out when all that is gonna be taken care of so i can make sure my aid actually comes to me this time! hahaha
:) whoo whooo


oh so much to do so very much to do
no bueno
no bueno at all


i am off to enjoy my day before work
cilla should be arrving soon
i love my friends


shout out to nadia for reminding of what needs to be done!
:)



peace love && shooting stars <3
laineyya

june 3rd

i am not sure this day will ever be normal again. ironically i havent written in months! and today is the day i choose to write again. i could easily just talk about the memories of this day or the last real memories i actually had almost 3 years ago now this day reminds me of visiting hte cemetery and being sad but today i refuse to feel that way because i know that i am ok because i know the lord has a plan
so before all the mushy stuff i shall fill you in with the last few months

well easter was about the last time i wrote. it was a rough one with everything that went down with my parents. i am not even sure where to begin but i decided that after two days of being sad i wasnt gonna let them control my emotions so i dont anymore and i am working my tush off to make things better and to make myself better

i wanna do great things and i didnt have any direction but i do now and thats totally what i am going with..

so between formal school finals nadia turning 21 and care's graduation and such life hass been moving kinda fast. laying out at the pool and drinking til dawn good music and even better friends having bad moments and good ones making poor decisions and deciding to change. life is a bumpy roller coaster and everything is getting better and better

i want to change for the better and be a better person and example. thats what i intend to do. life is so random i dont even understand it

i think after sunday i may have to write again. care's graduation is sure to make things interesting i love her more than i have loved anything in the whole world



so today i will not be sad i will be happy i will live as if i have no other choice. i make today better than yesterday and i make tomorrow just as wonderful if not more


the lord is my light and my salvation.

peace love && shooting stars
laineyya